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Monday, April 27, 2009
I'm (not) (semi-)sorry, Trey (yet)


Sam Mellinger is sorry. Or at least semi-sorry ... Mellinger wrote the above last Friday. Soria hasn't pitched since last Wednesday, and it looks like he's not going to pitch any time soon. So was Soria hurt during that nine-day stretch when he didn't pitch at all, and me and Jazayerli and Posnanski were screaming about it? And if he was hurt then, why did Hillman use him for an inning against the Indians last Wednesday night?

Soria did pick up the save in that game, but he was shaky. Was he shaky because he was hurt? Or was he shaky because he hadn't pitched in nine days?

I cannot answer any of these questions precisely. Until I can, I'm not ready to offer Hillman an apology, or even a semi-apology, for all the terrible things I've been writing about him. Yes, he knows things I do not know. While I rarely acknowledge that subtext, it's always there. But at some point we, as outside observers, have little choice but to take managers at their word. When the manager says he didn't use a pitcher because it wasn't the right tactical spot for that pitcher, we have to react as if he's telling us the truth.

If he's lying? I'll defend to the death his right -- nay, his obligation to lie to us, at least occasionally. But I'm not going to apologize until I know that's what he was doing. And that he had a good reason for doing it.