Photograph By Alex Cayley for ESPN The Magazine
"When I came into the league, I was only 185 pounds. So after my rookie year, the coaches told me to gain weight. I focused on getting big up top, which actually isn't important for a hockey player, and I ate a ton. I gained 40 pounds in about five months. I was 20 and didn't know any better. It wasn't like I was fat, but at the beginning of camp, I couldn't even skate. I was disappointed in myself and my body. Now I'm 202 and lean. I'm definitely going to get flak from my teammates for this photo shoot. They were all over me last year when I posed in my underwear for my clothing line. But I've never felt self-conscious about my body. I am who I am, and if you don't like me, too bad."