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In May 2004, I was punished and suspended, which I deserved, for my mistake. I embarrassed myself, my family and my team. I am responsible for the mistake of taking steroids and the positive result was not due to some over-the-counter supplement, protein shake or tainted test.
I promised never to make the same mistake again. The arbitration panel found that the evidence supports that I have not used steroids since the 2003 offseason.
After serving my suspension in May 2004, I was allowed to resume my minor-league career even though steroids remained in my system from the 2003 offseason. There was nothing I could do to completely remove the steroids from my body. In July 2004, I was again drug tested while in the minor leagues and the result was that the steroids in my system were in a declining quantity. However, I was suspended under the Minor League Drug Policy for a second time even though I had not used steroids since the 2003 offseason.
This season, while in the major leagues, I was shocked to learn that I tested positive again for steroids. The results showed an extremely low level. As the panel's decision points out, the Level was so low that it was "undisputed" that it had "no performance-enhancing effect" on me. This positive test was due to the fact that there were still some remnants of the steroid left in my system from the 2003 offseason.
I am troubled that I will be suspended for the third time despite the fact that the scientific evidence supports that I kept my promise that I would never use steroids again.
Even the panel states in its written decision that "the Panel recognizes that this result may be viewed as unfair to Michael Morse ..."
I find it unfair that I am being punished three different times for making the mistake of using steroids in the 2003 offseason. I have done nothing wrong since being punished the first time. At least there is some solace in the fact that the scientific evidence supports that I kept my promise that I would never use steroids again.
I am truly sorry that this statement was ever even necessary.
I can only hope that the fans, my teammates, the Mariners' organization, baseball and my family will accept my apology.