Marathon's melting pot of emotions

Sanders Details Marathon Experience
The finish area of a marathon is a melting pot of emotions: equal parts joy and pain, triumph and disappointment, but on Monday afternoon at the Boston Marathon, the completely unwelcome and unexpected feeling of horror penetrated the security barricades and spread far beyond the post-race holding area on Boylston Street.
Nearly 24 hours later, that section of the city remained a crime scene and investigators, runners and spectators, along with the rest of humanity, were left searching for answers to an unspeakable tragedy that claimed the lives of three people and injured nearly 200 others.
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Just just before noon on Monday, some 3,000 miles away in San Diego, I had just plopped myself down in a posh leather chair at my local Starbucks, excited to unwind and relax with a cup of coffee two days after celebrating my wedding -- a joyous, once-in-a-lifetime event that I didn't mind missing the first Boston Marathon in my adult life for -- when I received an alert on my phone about an explosion at the finish line. A quick scan of Twitter turned up a tweet from Competitor senior contributing editor Peter Vigneron, who mentioned "a report of two bombs at the finish of the Boston Marathon."
“For me to fully describe the emotions that engulfed me like a tidal wave at that moment would be an impossible task, but I immediately thought of colleagues Toni Reavis, Matt Turnbull, Steve Godwin and Kevin LaClaire, who I knew had wrapped up our "RunCenter" recap show not more than 100 feet behind the finish line on Boylston Street only moments beforehand. After a flurry of phone calls and text messages confirmed that our finish-line team -- a crew I would have been a part of any other year except for this one -- were OK, I frantically phoned, Facebooked, texted and tweeted at everyone else I knew that might be in the vicinity, including the rest of my fellow co-workers, numerous friends and the three athletes I coach who ran the race. Thankfully they all escaped unscathed, but others, of course, weren't so lucky.As deep and pervasive as this wound is for fellow runners, spectators, fans of the sport and residents of Boston alike, it will heal. In fact, that slow process has already begun.
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Over the phone, my boss, Competitor editor-in-chief Brian Metzler, told me, "It's bad. Really, really bad." That may have been an understatement, but I'm not sure the right words will ever exist to describe the situation that was unfolding outside his hotel.
Monday's incident hit close to home. Too close. Last year, at around the same time that the explosions went off on Boylston Street, Reavis and I stood in the finisher's chute analyzing what had gone down in the elite races earlier in the day. While talking to my wife on the phone Monday afternoon, I imagined myself back in that spot, where my co-workers were just minutes before the explosions occurred, and it brought me to tears.
As a native New Englander who grew up 45 minutes outside of the city, I watched the Boston Marathon on TV the third Monday of every April even before I took up running in high school. In college, our track team volunteered at water stations along the course. As an adult, I've run the race once, covered it for various media outlets eight years in a row, and coached dozens of athletes to compete in the people's Olympics. There's no event I get more excited about on an annual basis. The Boston Marathon has been a meaningful part of my life for more than half of my 30 years -- as it has for countless others -- and to experience our sport's ultimate symbol of accomplishment and inspiration being scarred by a spineless coward or cowards is a mark that will take a long time to heal.
As deep and pervasive as this wound is for fellow runners, spectators, fans of the sport and residents of Boston alike, it will heal. In fact, that slow process has already begun. A marathon, you see, is more than just a footrace -- it's a symbol of strength and unity, regardless of where it's held or how many people are on the starting line. It has a unique ability to bring people both inside and outside of the running world together during tough times -- as we saw in New York last fall -- and the number of runners who took their shirts off at the finish line Monday for rescuers to use as tourniquets, or rushed to hospitals minutes after finishing in order to donate blood, only serves as evidence of the unselfishness of this tight-knit community. And that unselfishness is infectious, as others inevitably follow suit, offering their homes, food or whatever other assistance they can muster to help the innocent victims of a terrible tragedy.
The marathon has a way of touching nearly every human emotion. Before the explosions that rocked Boylston Street blanketed the day with devastation, the Boston Marathon finish line area welcomed feelings of exaltation, disappointment and everything in between from the runners on the course as well as the spectators cheering them on from the sidelines. But not horror. That wretched emotion has no place inside or outside of those fences.
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THE AFTERMATH
- Marantz: Fenway keeper has healing spirit
- Ford: Athletic trainers among helpers
- Ford: London a key for future races
- Ford: London shows solidarity with Boston
- Keating: Marathons face security challenges
- Pierce: Race, aftermath, dark day in Boston
- MacMullan: Not ready to move on yet
- MacGregor: The day after the day after
- Merrill: Marathon to mayhem for Andruzzi
- Schaap: The worst kind of deja vu

- Rovell: Runners are a resilient bunch
- Metzler: More than ever, running matters
- Ford: Why come back? To 'show solidarity'
- Edes: Red Sox want to help in recovery
- Van Pelt: 'Worse than you could imagine'

- Fraioli: Marathon's melting pot of emotions
- Runner's view of marathon explosions
- Smith: Runner sees Boston carnage up close
- Celtics react to tragedy | Forsberg

- McDonald: B's plan to 'play their hearts out'
- B's Chara, Thornton, Bergeron weigh in

EXPLOSIONS ROCK MARATHON
- Police: 3 dead after marathon explosions
- Report: Bombs packed metal, nails, BBs
- Ford: Attack will test marathon community
- Edes: City is dealt a chilling blow

- Barboza: Those left on course pull together
- ESPN Boston: Eyewitness accounts
- Explosions rock marathon finish area

- Obama: We will learn who did this, why

- Security audit for Sunday's London Marathon
- Safety protocols and challenges

- Timeline of events before, after explosions
- Eyewitness accounts of explosions

- Bruschi: 'I felt the second explosion'

- Scene at the marathon's med tent

- Photographer relays chaotic scene

- Mass confusion near explosion sites

- 'Our entire sport is going to change'

- Runner details experience after explosion

- Tragedy at Boston: An inside view
- Reporter at finish area describes scene

- Initial reaction from scene of explosions

RACE RESULTS
- Lelisa Desisa doesn't waste any time
- Rita Jeptoo takes second Boston title
- Men's, women's Boston Marathon results
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